April 2nd

On this day I had my breast MRI, Took about 30 min. It was not terrible just alot of anxiety. WE follwed this with an appointment with Dr L. We found that I had 2 masses in my left breast and that I was no longer a candidate for a lumpectomy. ( I never consiered this option anyway) We talked alot more about the cancer and then he scheduled a PET scan for April 3rd. I was told to eat no sugar only protein and green veggies. Then nothing after midnight. What I really wanted was a bowl of icecream! I know at this stage I was still so shaken that alot had not set in. The only thing I wanted was to get the cancer out of me. We scheduled my surgery for April 9th. This appointment was follwed by one with the plastic surgeon. I was so overwhelmed by options and sugeries and the length of time for the total reconstruction. I had my friend Tisha with me for this appointment. I was so thankful she could look at the pictures and see past the scars. At that point it was all I could see. I opted for tissue expanders follewd by implants and then the nipple recontruction. Some sort of 3D tattoo. Wow so much to process. After this appointment I went home on my no sugar diet to wait for my PET scan. I was terrfied. So far all the tests had revealed bad news. I so wanted this to be good news. I needed to not have cancer anywhere else.